Lately I’ve been finding myself drinking coffee every morning, as like a power outlet and without it I cannot function, absolutely not…

A hazy memory are the days, where I got to binge watch shitty reality tv shows, read celebrity gossip, and the fact that “Becky” from homeroom likes the same guy as I do was my biggest “issue”.

Today, sleeping until 9:30 AM is the equivalent of sleeping until 2pm, “unacceptable” and throws off my whole schedule. It seems like time has become a scarce resource and 24 hours is simply not enough for one day.

It leaves me covered in guilt when my puppy beckons me to play with him, I apologize to him saying I simply do not have time to give him my love, as I try to finish my tasks before my next job begins.

Now all the times, my parent’s couldn’t give me attention as a child it makes sense… It’s like you are on this train and the destination is great things, and you can’t make it stop or get off.  You know you need to keep pushing it to reach that destination.

I guess this is adulting… When you’re priorities no longer revolve around you indulging but it is towards a greater good.

It’s not a terrible thing, not at all, just a bit overwhelming, it’s like i’m trying to change the world, but there is 7billion of them and only one of me. This took me 22 years and a little bit of  “Plato” but I am finally becoming understanding.

The reason I write this, is because I know for a fact i’m not alone. Definitely not the only one that feels this way, a lot of us are on the same boat. I just want you guys to know, whoever feels overwhelmed or that life is suddenly going too fast.

You aren’t in fact alone there are a lot more of us than you think, we are just in hiding. Fear of burdening people with our problems. But i’m not hiding anymore, because even if my words and struggles burden 10 people I know at least 1 person will no longer feel alone.

That’s what I am about. That’s why I’m here. Trying to cure everyone’s loneliness.

Mask Off adulting blur keep swimming life lonely thoughts ugh