You say you never meant to hurt me like that, once again my face is covered in tears. I don’t get it, did you think it wouldn’t hurt after you disappeared without a rhyme or reason…
Especially after I gave you a piece of my soul, it’s like I’m 14 again and experiencing my first heartbreak the plus is I don’t see you every weekend at youth group and church and we barely have the same friends.
Yet somehow news of you finds it’s way to me, that’s partially my fault I keep on looking to see if there was something I missed. In the rubble we left of this.
Something proving that I’m not crazy and there was a reason a reason you kept for me a reason big enough to ruin something happy and you just couldn’t tell me.
This is a different type of pain it’s not a pain I’m suffering for myself, I don’t feel as if I’m at a loss because I don’t think I ever really lost you.
I’m in pain because you’re in pain and you refuse to let me help you.
It sucks, you would probably tell me to stop caring; but unfortunately I’m a Taurus and that’s against my nature my heart is too big.
There’s not enough special people left in this planet…
So I’ll still try to find out what happened, even when I’m sleeping in the arms of another.
People ask me if I would comeback to you if you suddenly showed up and my answer is “no”
I love you, however I’m pissed at you and I deserve someone who won’t abandon me or if they do they will tell me why they’re leaving or give me some clues to piece it together.
Although I love you I do not trust you… and despite what you think I love myself more than to be in a relationship without trust.
Yet it hurts me that I didn’t have my answer and it hurts even more I can’t take away your pain
So yeah, you didn’t mean to hurt me like this but tears are streaming down my face.
The best way to get to know a person is not by what they say about themselves, but what they say about the world, people and everything else. So if you want to get to know me there is no better way than just simply reading my work. It’s the window to my soul.