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12.16.2020 – Snow Day

Snow days remind me of home, a place I didn’t leave to long ago. It inspires me to look within myself and remember who I used to be.

For a while I forgot what I loved… I forgot that writing as a piece of me and having a voice was so important.

I’ll let today be the beginning, beginning of the end. End to a dull life, end to giving up on my dreams. The beginning to being who I’m supposed to be.

Thank you snow.

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Un complacency

So for the past couple of months I kind of have been shutting myself out from the world.

Alienating myself in every way and I also realized that’s not good for me or for my loved ones, because I’m hard to be around when I’m in the head space… so I’m going to take baby steps to come out of my cave and be a part of society again.

About two years ago I had back to back catastrophes in my life and my instinct was to retreat, however I grown complacent with this unhealthy state, confided in just one person and no one deserves carrying all that weight.

So I need to get it together… and be better and that’s what I’m going to do within the following months just find my better self again.

Stay tuned for a mass production of art and stories as I go through this journey of coming into the world again. Wish me luck ✨

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Secrets of the Notes

It’s crazy the amount of conversations that will never happen I write down In my notes. Books that will never be read, thoughts that will never be spoken, stories that will never be told.

I probably already created a million universes by now, broke up with you a million times, married you five seconds later, became a world famous author had three kids and a dog. Yet none will ever know

All hypothetical situations that never came into fruition hanging out at the palm of my hand… Only the virtual pages of my notes has experienced them yet will never tell a single soul…

How much I thought created, loved, laughed, lived inside my head day after day year after year never having the courage to bring it to reality. The secrets in my notes. How badly I wanted… everything and more.

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Day 1 – Drama Free

Pro tips for a drama free life

– burn sage

– meditate

– if you’re getting stressed about what a certain group of people are thinking or saying about you CUT THEM OFF even if they’re your “friends” real friends don’t have you watching over shoulder and feeling like you need to be on your A game to hang

-Tea drink a lot of teaaa and water

– Read books

– Party less sleep more!

– Do one nice thing for yourself daily, be nice to yourself… (still working on that one)

-Most importantly trust God, The Universe whatever higher power you believe in trust them that they will make everything a okay! 🥰

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Sounds of Change

I like the sound of the car purr

the lights click when you’re about to take a turn

The wet tires on the ground

Most of all I love the silence in between us

Which allows me to appreciate all these other sounds

Of us going somewhere, anywhere

Not staying in the same place…. the sound of change.

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The One

It was a beautiful story

It started like this

We ran away from a night club

Climbed a rooftop

On my way down he stole a kiss

We moved very quickly

Too good to go slowly

There wasn’t a moment

We dared to miss

Within a few days he called me his

Unfortunately within that time

I got sick

However he was addicted to me

So he met my parents

Gave me a sense of safety

It’s a short story

So it ended like this

I woke up one day, while he was asleep

Whispered “ ___ I love you”

His eyes opened up slowly

The next day

I get a message

It said “I can’t do this…”

“It’s too much for me”

So the end, then my eyes started to bleed

-G.S

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Treasures

Breathe in

Breathe out

I guess that’s what living

Is all about

 

Close your eyes

Eliminate the doubt

Hold my hand

Make me yours now

 

If it was easy

It wouldn’t be worthwhile

Lick my wounds

Heal me now

 

We are two broken parts

Looking to be together

Don’t steal my heart

If you won’t make it

A treasure

 

 

-G.S

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Love

The only place you’re alive is in my memories, so I’ll be thinking about you so I can keep you here with me 

Those who says love dies have never loved at all, because whenever I can’t sleep I close my eyes and go back to that moment where I fell asleep in the worst place and when I opened my eyes you were looking at me and keeping me safe.

Although I can’t remember when I last saw your face, the thought of you keeps me warm on cold days.

 

 

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I’m Not Ashamed

I’m not ashamed

Of the things I done

The things I said

Whether in person

Or via text

I am who I am

A person

With a stubborn heart

Universe in my mind

Finding light in the dark

Most in my place

Wouldn’t show their face

Once they realized their mistake

However I face them with no disgrace

It’s my cross that was placed

I can carry its weight

Sometimes it gets heavy

Life escapes me

But I push myself back up

Brush off the dust

I believe in God

He told me to carry this

Because gave me his trust

I’ve betrayed many

But for him my loyalty is steady

For he knows my heart

Understand my soul

Keeps all the secrets

That no one knows

Shows me after every end a new start

-G.S

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Therapy is for sane people

SOO what’s up with this stigma around mental health, that you have to be messed up to go to therapy?

This angers me, among many things. Right now though this is getting under my skin the most!

On the contrary, therapy is for sane people, it’s for logical self aware people. Who realize that there might be something bringing them down or something that they need to get off their chest that is blocking them from something they desire to have or be.

Truly deranged, insane, mentally ill to an extreme, are usually too sick to willingly go to therapy.

The desire to see a therapist can’t be forced upon you it has to come from within, because there isn’t any point in having a conversation with someone you don’t want to speak with?

( I know most of you know what i’m saying because I’m sure most of us if not all had to have a forced conversation with someone, and we tend to throw those in the garbage as soon as it’s over.)

So with that said being said, i truly hope those who believe that therapy is only for “screwed up” people will reconsider. Realize it’s one of the best ways to treat yourself getting an unbiased opinion in you troubles or recognition in your accomplishments.

Everybody deserves to love themselves, feel good and have confidence.

That’s what therapy is about learning to love yourself in a world where there seems to not have enough love.

So if your feeling any type of way, or simply just want a nice convo to get you thinking and want to be in a better mental place. Invest in a therapist

http://www.psychologytoday.com

Hope this helps

-xoxo

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