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12.16.2020 – Snow Day

Snow days remind me of home, a place I didn’t leave to long ago. It inspires me to look within myself and remember who I used to be.

For a while I forgot what I loved… I forgot that writing as a piece of me and having a voice was so important.

I’ll let today be the beginning, beginning of the end. End to a dull life, end to giving up on my dreams. The beginning to being who I’m supposed to be.

Thank you snow.

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Un complacency

So for the past couple of months I kind of have been shutting myself out from the world.

Alienating myself in every way and I also realized that’s not good for me or for my loved ones, because I’m hard to be around when I’m in the head space… so I’m going to take baby steps to come out of my cave and be a part of society again.

About two years ago I had back to back catastrophes in my life and my instinct was to retreat, however I grown complacent with this unhealthy state, confided in just one person and no one deserves carrying all that weight.

So I need to get it together… and be better and that’s what I’m going to do within the following months just find my better self again.

Stay tuned for a mass production of art and stories as I go through this journey of coming into the world again. Wish me luck ✨

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Secrets of the Notes

It’s crazy the amount of conversations that will never happen I write down In my notes. Books that will never be read, thoughts that will never be spoken, stories that will never be told.

I probably already created a million universes by now, broke up with you a million times, married you five seconds later, became a world famous author had three kids and a dog. Yet none will ever know

All hypothetical situations that never came into fruition hanging out at the palm of my hand… Only the virtual pages of my notes has experienced them yet will never tell a single soul…

How much I thought created, loved, laughed, lived inside my head day after day year after year never having the courage to bring it to reality. The secrets in my notes. How badly I wanted… everything and more.

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What I want

Strong arms

Soft lips

you hold me tight

Love it when I dance with you

I’m not the best dancer

But your the best lover

I couldn’t imagine life without you

Is that what you wanted me to say?

Sorry I’m not prefect

Your no shiny prize either

I deserve someone better

I deserve the love of another

This isn’t love

Its something less deeper

Not love

Not hate

Just not what I want

Better off as friends

Before we rip this thing called



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Sounds of Change

I like the sound of the car purr

the lights click when you’re about to take a turn

The wet tires on the ground

Most of all I love the silence in between us

Which allows me to appreciate all these other sounds

Of us going somewhere, anywhere

Not staying in the same place…. the sound of change.

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Everything and Nothing

You’re my bestfriend

The one I tell all my secrets too

At the same time

My worst enemy

The one that cuts the deepest

Yet you’re my lover

Who’s touches leave me breathless

Also my peace

The sound of your voice soothes me to sleep

Most days my happiness

At the sight of you no tears are present

Most importantly you’re my courage Because when it comes to you I’m not afraid to say “love” and mean it wholeheartedly

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Turn Light

I’m thinking to my self, as I am sitting here.

How I wish I could take back some things you seen

Like the color of my blood

When I bleed


Or how my dark brown eyes

Suddenly turn light

Every time I cry,

With a smile I put up a fight


However always remeber

My scream

Or when I say your name



When you are far away

Still belong to me

Even when I can’t see your face

Lay your soul right next to me


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The truth is as much as I love you..

Which is a lot

I have no desire to be in your bed tonight

You wounded my pride

Stay out of my sight

Cause you belong in the sidelines

As I will gain strength

And continue

To live my life


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The One

It was a beautiful story

It started like this

We ran away from a night club

Climbed a rooftop

On my way down he stole a kiss

We moved very quickly

Too good to go slowly

There wasn’t a moment

We dared to miss

Within a few days he called me his

Unfortunately within that time

I got sick

However he was addicted to me

So he met my parents

Gave me a sense of safety

It’s a short story

So it ended like this

I woke up one day, while he was asleep

Whispered “ ___ I love you”

His eyes opened up slowly

The next day

I get a message

It said “I can’t do this…”

“It’s too much for me”

So the end, then my eyes started to bleed


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You? Baby, A “petty” drug

I don’t really miss you

I just miss your taste

The way you kissed me

Gently and passionately

A hand on my throat the other on my waist

Baby baby you don’t know me

But you know I like affection with a little pain

You had me, had me so good

Better than your friend

Who tried months to get me

Yet with an amazing kiss

I was at the palm of your hand

Writing symphonies and dreaming


As if we could ever

Be more than just a fuck

That’s what you wanted

You almost got it

Until I said stop

Haven’t touched you ever since

I’m sober now

You have no affect on me

You’re just a petty drug